When I started this whole weight loss and fitness thing in January, I set as my first goal weight 250 pounds. At the time, I weighed in at 274.6 pounds on the scale, and when I looked at that number and thought about how much weight I had to lose to be at a healthy BMI, I hyperventilated a little. Just thinking about losing at least 100 pounds was so overwhelming, so I didn't think of it that way. I decided to take it in multiples of 25 pounds instead.
I hit my first goal of 250 pounds a couple of weeks ago, and now I am working toward 225 pounds. The lowest weight I have been since getting married was about 235 pounds, so when I hit my next goal, I will be the lightest I have been in a long, long time. In fact, I cannot remember the last time I weighed that little.
Now that I am about 31 pounds and almost five months into this journey, I am cautiously allowing myself to think of the bigger picture. I don't want to set myself up for failure, but I do want to give myself the credit I deserve and get excited about the future. I recently turned 34, and I have started thinking that my 35th birthday will be good target date for a Big Goal. And I have set as the goal a weight on my 35th birthday of 200 pounds.
This gives me about a year to lose about 45 pounds. While it is true that my weight loss has slowed down and that there will be good weeks and bad weeks, I think I should be able to make this goal. As I move further into the C25K program, I know there will be a day when I will be able to run for exercise without interspersing it with walking sessions. And once I get through W4 of the program, I plan to add strength training (and therefore longer gym sessions) to my list of activities. I feel good about this goal and feel it gives me something good to work toward.
Switching gears, I want to talk about something that is going on over at the blog Jack Sh*t Getting Fit. Jack is doing a feature on his blog called W.I.D.T.H., which stands for "Why I am doing this here." In this feature, readers are invited to write on an index card their reasons for getting fit. The reasons vary from "For my kids" to "Because I want a better life" to "I don't want to die young." Reading these note cards has shown me that, as much as I feel like most people I know can't understand this journey I am on, there are other people out there who struggle with the same issues I do. There are people at different stages of their journey, some well into it and some just starting out, and they know what I am feeling.
You know what my note card says? It says, "Because I am worth it!" And I am worth it. It's easy to get down on yourself and feel worthless and useless when you have a problem with food. When you are in the midst of a binge, it's easy to think that you might as well just keep eating because you don't deserve to be fit and healthy, to be attractive, or to feel good. However, I know that I am worth it. And that is why I am doing this here.
Make it a great day, everyone!
Edited to add:
My submission for the W.I.D.T.H. feature: