Derailed

I have been in such a funk with this health and fitness thing lately.  Part of it was situational, as I discussed in my last post.  But part of it has just been lackadaisical.  I find myself more often falling back into those behaviors that got me to this place in the first place.  Why have just one cookie when you can have four or five?  Why eat the healthy lunch you brought to work when you can order Chinese food with your coworkers?  Why eat healthy at the picnic when everyone else is pigging out?

It's time to recenter and recommit.  Every item that goes in my mouth goes in the food journal.  Every calorie is accounted for.  There is no more "It's one piece of chocolate, so it doesn't have to be counted."  Everything counts.  I have to remember my mantra, "I am WORTH IT!"  I am worth looking good and feeling good.  I am worth those more expensive fresh fruits and vegetables and the organic meat and dairy products.  I am worth the clean foods.  I don't have to settle for processed foods and sugar and HFCS.  I am worth more than that.

I head back to yoga tonight, and I think that will be good for me.  I was off for two weeks because I had concert tickets and then was in Florida for my grandfather's funeral.  I look forward to spending that hour getting into my head and quieting the noise of the outside world.  I am going to stretch myself to the limit tonight, and it's going to feel great.  And then tomorrow, I am getting back into the gym.  I did work out twice last week in the hotel, but I haven't been to my gym, to get on my elliptical and my arc trainer, in over a week.  I am looking forward to our reunion, and I know that will feel great too.

Make it a great day, everyone!